Friday, August 10, 2012

so what now?

The marathon is in 12 weeks.

We're still following this low mileage training plan. I have a 17 miler to do this weekend. (I know that sounds ridiculous, but I ran exactly 3 miles last week. whoops. It IS a low mileage plan though with a good internetz reputation for running-to-finish).

My whole body creeks.
I am so tired.
I'm not sure if these things are related.

Am I tired from having twins who don't sleep through the night? Am I tired because I drink too much caffeine and eat too much sugar? (both of those answers are probably yes) Am I tired because my potassium is low? (more on that next week sometime) Am I tired because I'm fat, and I drink too much caffeine and eat too much sugar, and I don't sleep enough so I drink more caffeine and eat too much sugar, and circle back around? Well, that's likely.

I realized recently I am pretty afraid of failure. And if you never try you can't fail.
And I have some pretty ridiculous and negative self talk, which mimics my mom in a scary way. And her eating habits, which I criticize a lot. I mimic those too. I never realized how similar my bad habits and issues are to hers until I lived with her for a few months recently. Scary. I don't want that for our girls.

It is time to make a change. Time for me to lose 30 lbs. Time for me to stop drinking an embarrassing amount of soda daily, and stop eating candy pretty much daily.

I'm nervous though. Of not meeting calorie goals, of not losing weight, of gaining it all right back.It sounds like it would be easier not to change than to change and then revert. Then the failure and issues are public, and failure is embarrassing.

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

more interactive BBC stuff

The BBC rocks.

After finding my Olympic Body Double, I poked around their page a little more.

Seems at my current weight, with a BMI (sigh) of 28, I have a lower BMI than 59% (!!) of 30-44 year olds in the US. I am fairly chubby, though not obese even by BMI standards, but I admit I am shocked by this.
Of course, my BMI is HIGHER than 77% of women in the same age bracket internationally, so I think it is safe to say Americans are just fat.
If I were at my goal (hah), I'd have a lower BMI - at 23 -  than 83% of my American peers and 54% internationally. So I guess my goal is pretty average for international weight for my height...

Also, I'm roughly 4,533,454,396th person born/currently living on Earth and 79,171,698,182nd person to have lived since history began.

Random scary BBC factiods:

Battle for resources: It is estimated that your group of the richest countries consumes double the resources used by the rest of the world. The UN estimates that if current population and consumption trends continue, by the 2030s we will need the equivalent of two Earths to support us.
Did you know? By mid-century, the world's urban population is likely to be the same size as the global population was in 2004.


Monday, August 6, 2012

olympic body double

I saw this on Ben Does Life...

The BBC has a fun little Olympic Body Double site.

My body double is a weightlifter named Jack Oliver from Great Britain. Not only is he a guy (duh) but he's also 10 years younger than me.

He placed 10th in his event, so no medal for "me".
He did PR though, apparently, with a snatch of 308lbs and a clean and jerk of 374lbs, omg.

For kicks, I checked my goal weight (well, the theoretical one if, you know, I was trying to lose weight), and then my double would be British soccer player Elizabeth Brown. I'm more on board with being an awesome footballer :)