We're still doing the NY Marathon, though in all honesty just running to finish. no time goal. We're both mildly injured (well, C is more than mildly injured and is in PT) and I'm overweight. Finishing at all with 2 one year olds is good right?
It kind of pains me to "waste" an entry to NYC on racing to finish, but I'm kind of over it. It's a fun, huge, crowded race, and we're running it together. It'll be a lot more fun than running with time pressure. I can save that for a less cool race someday (though I doubt I'll do another marathon anytime soon).
In the meanwhile, I'm setting my sights on a 5k PR for this Thanksgiving (starting training this week) and losing some weight. I was 175.6 this morning, the most I've been in a while. Granted, I am probably bloated etc yuck etc, but ugh. I need to stop fucking around. Its been nearly 4 years at this weight and I just keep bitching like that'll change something.
So small goals, 10 lbs by Thanksgiving (8 weeks).
Monday, October 1, 2012
Friday, August 10, 2012
so what now?
The marathon is in 12 weeks.
We're still following this low mileage training plan. I have a 17 miler to do this weekend. (I know that sounds ridiculous, but I ran exactly 3 miles last week. whoops. It IS a low mileage plan though with a good internetz reputation for running-to-finish).
My whole body creeks.
I am so tired.
I'm not sure if these things are related.
Am I tired from having twins who don't sleep through the night? Am I tired because I drink too much caffeine and eat too much sugar? (both of those answers are probably yes) Am I tired because my potassium is low? (more on that next week sometime) Am I tired because I'm fat, and I drink too much caffeine and eat too much sugar, and I don't sleep enough so I drink more caffeine and eat too much sugar, and circle back around? Well, that's likely.
I realized recently I am pretty afraid of failure. And if you never try you can't fail.
And I have some pretty ridiculous and negative self talk, which mimics my mom in a scary way. And her eating habits, which I criticize a lot. I mimic those too. I never realized how similar my bad habits and issues are to hers until I lived with her for a few months recently. Scary. I don't want that for our girls.
It is time to make a change. Time for me to lose 30 lbs. Time for me to stop drinking an embarrassing amount of soda daily, and stop eating candy pretty much daily.
I'm nervous though. Of not meeting calorie goals, of not losing weight, of gaining it all right back.It sounds like it would be easier not to change than to change and then revert. Then the failure and issues are public, and failure is embarrassing.
We're still following this low mileage training plan. I have a 17 miler to do this weekend. (I know that sounds ridiculous, but I ran exactly 3 miles last week. whoops. It IS a low mileage plan though with a good internetz reputation for running-to-finish).
My whole body creeks.
I am so tired.
I'm not sure if these things are related.
Am I tired from having twins who don't sleep through the night? Am I tired because I drink too much caffeine and eat too much sugar? (both of those answers are probably yes) Am I tired because my potassium is low? (more on that next week sometime) Am I tired because I'm fat, and I drink too much caffeine and eat too much sugar, and I don't sleep enough so I drink more caffeine and eat too much sugar, and circle back around? Well, that's likely.
I realized recently I am pretty afraid of failure. And if you never try you can't fail.
And I have some pretty ridiculous and negative self talk, which mimics my mom in a scary way. And her eating habits, which I criticize a lot. I mimic those too. I never realized how similar my bad habits and issues are to hers until I lived with her for a few months recently. Scary. I don't want that for our girls.
It is time to make a change. Time for me to lose 30 lbs. Time for me to stop drinking an embarrassing amount of soda daily, and stop eating candy pretty much daily.
I'm nervous though. Of not meeting calorie goals, of not losing weight, of gaining it all right back.It sounds like it would be easier not to change than to change and then revert. Then the failure and issues are public, and failure is embarrassing.
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
more interactive BBC stuff
The BBC rocks.
After finding my Olympic Body Double, I poked around their page a little more.
Seems at my current weight, with a BMI (sigh) of 28, I have a lower BMI than 59% (!!) of 30-44 year olds in the US. I am fairly chubby, though not obese even by BMI standards, but I admit I am shocked by this.
Of course, my BMI is HIGHER than 77% of women in the same age bracket internationally, so I think it is safe to say Americans are just fat.
If I were at my goal (hah), I'd have a lower BMI - at 23 - than 83% of my American peers and 54% internationally. So I guess my goal is pretty average for international weight for my height...
Also, I'm roughly 4,533,454,396th person born/currently living on Earth and 79,171,698,182nd person to have lived since history began.
Random scary BBC factiods:
Battle for resources: It is estimated that your group of the richest countries consumes double the resources used by the rest of the world. The UN estimates that if current population and consumption trends continue, by the 2030s we will need the equivalent of two Earths to support us.
Did you know? By mid-century, the world's urban population is likely to be the same size as the global population was in 2004.
Yikes.
After finding my Olympic Body Double, I poked around their page a little more.
Seems at my current weight, with a BMI (sigh) of 28, I have a lower BMI than 59% (!!) of 30-44 year olds in the US. I am fairly chubby, though not obese even by BMI standards, but I admit I am shocked by this.
Of course, my BMI is HIGHER than 77% of women in the same age bracket internationally, so I think it is safe to say Americans are just fat.
If I were at my goal (hah), I'd have a lower BMI - at 23 - than 83% of my American peers and 54% internationally. So I guess my goal is pretty average for international weight for my height...
Also, I'm roughly 4,533,454,396th person born/currently living on Earth and 79,171,698,182nd person to have lived since history began.
Random scary BBC factiods:
Battle for resources: It is estimated that your group of the richest countries consumes double the resources used by the rest of the world. The UN estimates that if current population and consumption trends continue, by the 2030s we will need the equivalent of two Earths to support us.
Did you know? By mid-century, the world's urban population is likely to be the same size as the global population was in 2004.
Yikes.
Monday, August 6, 2012
olympic body double
I saw this on Ben Does Life...
The BBC has a fun little Olympic Body Double site.
My body double is a weightlifter named Jack Oliver from Great Britain. Not only is he a guy (duh) but he's also 10 years younger than me.
He placed 10th in his event, so no medal for "me".
He did PR though, apparently, with a snatch of 308lbs and a clean and jerk of 374lbs, omg.
For kicks, I checked my goal weight (well, the theoretical one if, you know, I was trying to lose weight), and then my double would be British soccer player Elizabeth Brown. I'm more on board with being an awesome footballer :)
The BBC has a fun little Olympic Body Double site.
My body double is a weightlifter named Jack Oliver from Great Britain. Not only is he a guy (duh) but he's also 10 years younger than me.
He placed 10th in his event, so no medal for "me".
He did PR though, apparently, with a snatch of 308lbs and a clean and jerk of 374lbs, omg.
For kicks, I checked my goal weight (well, the theoretical one if, you know, I was trying to lose weight), and then my double would be British soccer player Elizabeth Brown. I'm more on board with being an awesome footballer :)
Thursday, July 26, 2012
so that fall marathon
So this November, my wife and I are running the NYC Marathon. This is a bucket list item for her, and I wanted to do it again, so we're going to run together.
Truth be told, we're running to finish, not to "race" it. This is good for a couple of reasons:
On a related note, the race is 14 weeks from this coming Sunday. I currently weigh 16 lbs more than I did when I ran it in 2007. Should I try to lose the weight? I don't know. The biggest most ridiculous hurdle to that for me right now is I don't want to have to admit to anyone I didn't/couldn't find the motivation/whatever if I do try...ridiculous.
Truth be told, we're running to finish, not to "race" it. This is good for a couple of reasons:
- it is her first full (and likely my last, at least as far ahead as I can think), and anyone with marathon experience knows running to finish is a good game plan for 26.2 miles.
- we have infant (almost toddler, omg) twins
On a related note, the race is 14 weeks from this coming Sunday. I currently weigh 16 lbs more than I did when I ran it in 2007. Should I try to lose the weight? I don't know. The biggest most ridiculous hurdle to that for me right now is I don't want to have to admit to anyone I didn't/couldn't find the motivation/whatever if I do try...ridiculous.
Sunday, July 8, 2012
almost. almost.
We are going to finish the kitchen before the 1 year kitchen-versery.
This past Thursday, we got the tile grouted. It only took 5 weeks to get around to doing a 4 hr project. Oh, life post kids...
My In-Laws are coming out in two weeks for the girls' birthday, so we really need to get this sealed and caulked by then - I'd love to finally hang the outlet covers!!! We also have a couple of cabinets to rearrange for practical reasons, and I am entertaining painting it a different color (right now the kitchen is the same yellow and the LR/DR and hallway).
This past Thursday, we got the tile grouted. It only took 5 weeks to get around to doing a 4 hr project. Oh, life post kids...
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| its not really a mustard yellow....i need to learn to white balance... |
My In-Laws are coming out in two weeks for the girls' birthday, so we really need to get this sealed and caulked by then - I'd love to finally hang the outlet covers!!! We also have a couple of cabinets to rearrange for practical reasons, and I am entertaining painting it a different color (right now the kitchen is the same yellow and the LR/DR and hallway).
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Old age
Today my mom asked me how old I will be at my next birthday (which us this weekend). She wasn't sure if I was turning 30 or 31. Now, granted, this was in person...i like to think she could have figured it out, especially since my dad's birthday was only 5 days ago and I'm pretty sure she remembers his age, and he is 30 years older than me (much like I am 30 years older than my kids!).
I can't help being a little insulted though. I am her oldest kid. Shouldn't she remember how old I am??
My minor confession though: I sometimes screw up my age. I default to 26 (hahaha) or my wife's age....and she is a year older than me. At least I can remember how old she is.
I think I am at that point age really is just a number that doesn't matter a bit.
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